I THINK i want a baby....

I just dont know what I want right now.

Some days I think yes, yes I do want a baby, then other days im like no, im in no rush for another baby.

I done my pros and cons, I still cant decide.

On one hand Im perfectly content with my beautiful little girl, She is just now getting to the age she can do things for herself, she is big enough to go to the carnivals and ride the rides, go on fun vacations, dress herself, etc. Which means Im finally able to focus on myself a little more and  go back to work,go back to school,when she starts school in August.

Not to mention I dont want to start back to school or work and have to stop right in the middle again to have another child, Im not ready to have to change diapers, carry a diaper bag, make bottles, be up half the night, miss out on Las Vegas vacations,and it would make taking Destiny camping much more difficult. Im also a tad afraid that she wont beable to get the love and attention she gets now. I know its gonna sound stupid but Im also a tad afriad I wont beable to love the next one as much as I love her, she is my whole heart and I just cant imagine having any love left to give to another child.

But on the on the other hand, Destiny is already asking for a baby now that she has a little cousin and her other cousin just had a baby brother.... I also think she gets lonely, I mean I can only play barbies and babies for so long and so much. I hate to watch her at the park playing alone, I hate watching her in the front yard just wandering around because she has no one to play with, It breaks my heart. I know I want her to  have a sibling, because heaven forbid something should happen to me and johnny I want her to have a brother/sister to lean on and understand what she is going through. I know Johnny, Destiny and Myself are just getting older and if there was a right time in our lives its now.

Truth be told I just want to leave it up to god, but thats hard to do when I have the mirena which prevents pregnaucy  for 5yrs, but I feel like going to the doc and having it removed is making the desicion to have another one....kinda defeats the purpose of letting god decide, huh?

Realisticly I probably should have had my second child a long time ago, but we just werent ready for that and Im still not sure we are now and Im also a tad afraid I will have a boy- I just dont feel like a boy mom.

Listening to boy moms talk about things boys do,go through, etc just doesnt sound exciting at all!!!

I dont want to to have to deal with circumsision, I dont what to deal with holding it all the time as he gets older, I dont want to deal with mud and bugs, I dont want to deal with ruff and tumbly fights...etc.

Im not saying that I wont love it just because its a boy or anything like that, because I would love him... It just doesnt sound very exciting thats all.

I believe Johnny is just as flip floppy on the situation to.... He just wants me to make the decison and not bother him with the if ands or buts.... He would be happy either way. Men can be so unhelpful!! All he cares is that if  we do have an other one he wants a boy.

And I would have to put off school/work for another 3-4yrs and I dont know that Im prepared to do that right now.

My mother on the other hand wants me to hurry up and have another baby and she doesnt care what it is....lol

Argh... I just dont know.......

Stuff I make!!

  Well,

now that I have made my decision to not run a online shop.

I think I will still make and sell some, I just think im only gonna do it on a " once in a while" type thing, so If you was to want to purchase something I make feel free to ask.

As I still love to sew and I tend to make way more that Destiny can wear or use....lol

Anywayz,

Now that Im back to sewing for fun I have went back to see some of the things I used to make so I could pick some patterns to make for Destiny this summer.

So far this morning I have made her 3 pillowcase type dresses...

And Im working on some shorts suits now.

I intend to make a few peek-a-boo skirts with M2M shirts.

I cant believe how much I missed just being able to sew what the heck I want to! Instead of haveing to do what other people wanted me to. 

I was going to post some pictures of the dresses I made to day but he battery on my camera is dead, so I thought I would post some pictures of things I have made in the past!

So there is just a few of the things I have made, by far not all or everything I have ever made...lol

 Hope you enjoyed!!

after 5 1/2 yrs Im ENGAGED!!

Wow,

I can't believe Im officially ENGAGED!!! YAY

Im no longer just his girlfriend... Im his fiance and future WIFE.

I have waited along time for this.... and Im so excited I cant contain myself!!

Isnt it GORGOUS???

I absolutely love it...

We have set the date for

SEPTEMBER 2012

Havent officially picked a day yet, Im thinking around the 14th.

So now all I have to do is figure out what kind of wedding I want, I was never the kind of girl who dreamed of the day she would get married... and Im not the center of attetion type, Im also not a very affectionate person to anyone but my daughter and my Fiance....Something about hugging other people, even my parents/sibling just feels very awkward and uncomfortable.....as well as public affection... Im not the one your gonna see in the store or parking lot giving kisses to my future hubby.... to me that is just priviate.... and for the most part he feels the same..

So Im just not positive on all the details yet, but I only have 3 reasons for not wanting the big traditional wedding..

1.) I dont want to have to ask my dad to walk me down the isle...Awkward!!

2.) I dont want to have to kiss Johnny infront of everyone....Embarassing!!

3.) I do not want anyone crying or getting emotional or hugging me....Unconfortable!
So a vacation/wedding in Las Vegas at a cute little chapel sounds pretty good to me, But then Johnnys family and most of mine wouldnt want or be able to attend, so that is probably out of reach.

Reasons why I do want a regular wedding:

1.) Picking out the dress

2.) planning and having a party worth dressing up for

3.) Getting Gorgous

and most importantly

 Seeing Johnny in  a suit or at least all dressed up..

( A suit may be to much to wish for...lol)

But whatever kind of wedding I choose, I know I want it to be Pink and Brown,

I want a Pink dress for sure, and I would like it to be outside. I will probably have to break the wedding down into 3 parts:
 the actual ceromony
dinner/reception
and a after party

Because most of my family are pretty religous (church of christ) and Johnnys family is your typical african american family, In other words our familys have 2 totally different ways of celebrating and I want everyone to be happy.
The Ceromony will be all me!
The dinner/reception can be for everyone and the After party can be more for his family and those of mine that arent comfortable with the dancing and music.

So how soon should I start planning??

O, and we plan to have out second child next year too, So some how I have to get this all worked out...

OVERSTOCK SALE

Hello everyone,

I recently made alot of outfits for a craft show, and I have several Outfits and onesies that I really need to sale,  So I have Reduced the price from $18.00 to $15.00+shipping, these outfits are a size  2t-3t, and are ready to ship!!! This sale will end Oct 21st and the Items will be shipped out on the 21st!!!

Please forgive my photos!

Feel free to email me at:

orangeblossomboutique2@gmail.com

 or just leave a comment... thanks

These onesies designs are handpainted and are glittery,

My photos just dont show that well.

Hope you all enjoyed this outfits, let me know if you would like something custom made for you.

BIG SALE

Hello,

 I just recently went to a craft show, and I have several Handmade Outfits left that I still need to get rid of, so Im selling them at a discounted price of only $18.00ea!!!

I have the pictures uploaded on my facebook:

$18.00ea Handmade outfits

This link will take you straight to the pics.....

And here they are!!!!!