Changes!

Wow,

I feel like my life is taking on tons of changes this past year.

I got engaged after 5yrs of waiting...lol and Im  planning the wedding for next april.

YAY ME!!

Next,

 Destiny started making friends with neighborhood kids, thats something I struggle with; I grew up outside of town, the closest house was a mile away and I have serious issues with people being in my space/house....Im working on it though.

And my next big issue is the thought of adding a second child to our household.

I just cant seem to make a decision between having another child and my selfishness in wanting to get some of my personal life back, ie work,school, etc......

Destiny is just getting old enought to start school which will give me some free time to get a job or go back to school, and the thought of throwing myself back into another 3-4yrs of being a stay at home mom is unexplainable. Not to mention that I dont want it to interfere with my wedding, I have waited so long to have one and I dont what a big baby bump under my wedding dress, and I sure dont want to pospone it.

And last and I guess most bothersome is the fact that I dont have a baby girl anymore... I have a big girl! She is constantly doing things that remind me of that fact and its hard to accept that time flys! She turns 4 in a couple of days, and will be starting preK in august.....She will change so much once she starts school, and I hope Im as prepared as I can be for all those changes.  I wish I could just hit the rewind button and do it all over again, she was just the best and easiest baby ever.

I mean how could you resist this little face!!!

I THINK i want a baby....

I just dont know what I want right now.

Some days I think yes, yes I do want a baby, then other days im like no, im in no rush for another baby.

I done my pros and cons, I still cant decide.

On one hand Im perfectly content with my beautiful little girl, She is just now getting to the age she can do things for herself, she is big enough to go to the carnivals and ride the rides, go on fun vacations, dress herself, etc. Which means Im finally able to focus on myself a little more and  go back to work,go back to school,when she starts school in August.

Not to mention I dont want to start back to school or work and have to stop right in the middle again to have another child, Im not ready to have to change diapers, carry a diaper bag, make bottles, be up half the night, miss out on Las Vegas vacations,and it would make taking Destiny camping much more difficult. Im also a tad afraid that she wont beable to get the love and attention she gets now. I know its gonna sound stupid but Im also a tad afriad I wont beable to love the next one as much as I love her, she is my whole heart and I just cant imagine having any love left to give to another child.

But on the on the other hand, Destiny is already asking for a baby now that she has a little cousin and her other cousin just had a baby brother.... I also think she gets lonely, I mean I can only play barbies and babies for so long and so much. I hate to watch her at the park playing alone, I hate watching her in the front yard just wandering around because she has no one to play with, It breaks my heart. I know I want her to  have a sibling, because heaven forbid something should happen to me and johnny I want her to have a brother/sister to lean on and understand what she is going through. I know Johnny, Destiny and Myself are just getting older and if there was a right time in our lives its now.

Truth be told I just want to leave it up to god, but thats hard to do when I have the mirena which prevents pregnaucy  for 5yrs, but I feel like going to the doc and having it removed is making the desicion to have another one....kinda defeats the purpose of letting god decide, huh?

Realisticly I probably should have had my second child a long time ago, but we just werent ready for that and Im still not sure we are now and Im also a tad afraid I will have a boy- I just dont feel like a boy mom.

Listening to boy moms talk about things boys do,go through, etc just doesnt sound exciting at all!!!

I dont want to to have to deal with circumsision, I dont what to deal with holding it all the time as he gets older, I dont want to deal with mud and bugs, I dont want to deal with ruff and tumbly fights...etc.

Im not saying that I wont love it just because its a boy or anything like that, because I would love him... It just doesnt sound very exciting thats all.

I believe Johnny is just as flip floppy on the situation to.... He just wants me to make the decison and not bother him with the if ands or buts.... He would be happy either way. Men can be so unhelpful!! All he cares is that if  we do have an other one he wants a boy.

And I would have to put off school/work for another 3-4yrs and I dont know that Im prepared to do that right now.

My mother on the other hand wants me to hurry up and have another baby and she doesnt care what it is....lol

Argh... I just dont know.......

Pre-K... Sunset or Roosevelt??

OMG..

My baby is getting so big. Pre-K enrollment is thursday and I still havent made my decision on which school I should send her to...

Option 1. Roosevelt-The school right across from my parents and across the ally from our house.

Down side is she will know NO one there, she wont know any kids or teachers.. It will be so scary for her. my moms concern is that she will see her house and what we are doing from the playground and stand at the fence crying begging us to come and get her....

But I know she is just gonna have to learn thats not gonna work. Its gonna break my heart.. But I guess thats just part of life...

I really think she will be fine, She has always made friends really easy. She is not shy at all! She has always been with at least me,her daddy, or my parents, she has been absolutely no where without us. So I know its going to be hard. I wish there was at least 1 kid that she knew, going to school for the first time to. 

Option 2: Sunset- The school that my aunt works at. (teachers aide)

and both of her boys go, Jake is in 2nd and Jarred will be in Kindergarten.

 So Destiny would know they are there and probably feel safer. But Im just afraid that I will be holding her back in some way by sending her to school with one of us(my aunt) there.

 I just want her to learn that sometimes we arent going to be here, but she will be ok. Just like every other kid in the world...

But again it wouldnt have to be so scary since jake and jarred are there... they are kids she always plays with, they go camping with us, they are at all family funtions...

My mom and Aunt want her to go to Sunset. I would rather she across the street just because its close and my aunt wouldnt be there, but she also wouldnt have anybody she knew... Her daddy just says for me to decide...ARGH.. talk about no help.

I know Im probably making this more difficult than it has to be but I just want to make the right decision....

1 is practicly in my backyard, but no friends

the other is all the way across town but wouldnt know anyone...

WHAT IS A MOM TO DO?

What do you think

Should I send her to school with her cousins and my aunt or send her to school right across the street with no friends??

It just hit me about an hour ago... all these fears and thoughts....UM

Opening a Handmade Childrens Toy Shop!!!

Im opening a Handmade Childrens Toy shop in a local craft mall, and I would like to get some great items on consignment or at wholesale prices. Im looking for play foods,kitchen utensils,games, toys,toy kits,pretend tools,blanket babies,and etc.

I would like to buy at least 5 or more of each item depending on price.

NO oven mits,aprons,dish towels,sock monkeys,dolls, doll clothes, as I already have those items.(If you make doll diapers or shoes, I need those if they will fit my dolls)

Please contact me with your prices,shipping costs and terms.

For more details please email me at:

Orangeblossomboutique2@gmail.com

or visit my etsy shop at:

http://www.orangeblossomdesign.etsy.com

My Personal Blog

For those of you who have been following my diet or any of my other personal posts, I just want to let you know that all my posts about it have been deleted from this blog and have been moved to my personal blog:

There you will see all the things involved in my personal life, like kids, being a mom, learning how to care for my biracial daugters hair, hairstyles, vacation, my diet, my family, everything about kids, etc......

it is going to be a little of everything.

And my Orange Blossom Blog is going to be about sewing, sales and promotions for my etsy shop, about me opening my own shop in my local area, crafts,tutorials and any thing else that involves sewing or crafting.

But since I have not had a chance to add my new weight on my personal blog I wanted to let you know that I stared this diet Sept 16 at 218lbs and it is Oct 18th and Im 198...only 8lbs away from my goal by the end of Oct......Im so proud of myself...I cant believe how much better I look....20lbs can you believe that.????

OVERSTOCK SALE

Hello everyone,

I recently made alot of outfits for a craft show, and I have several Outfits and onesies that I really need to sale,  So I have Reduced the price from $18.00 to $15.00+shipping, these outfits are a size  2t-3t, and are ready to ship!!! This sale will end Oct 21st and the Items will be shipped out on the 21st!!!

Please forgive my photos!

Feel free to email me at:

orangeblossomboutique2@gmail.com

 or just leave a comment... thanks

These onesies designs are handpainted and are glittery,

My photos just dont show that well.

Hope you all enjoyed this outfits, let me know if you would like something custom made for you.

My Mom got her first Blog!!

Hey everyone, My mom got her first blog!

You should go check it out and follow her, I already have so you should see her in my followers section, and if not here is her link:

We have partnered up for my Etsy shop, she does all the handpainted items and helps me with the sewing of outfits, so dont forget to check us out on:

On other news we are slowly getting ready for vacation,

I borrowed some luggage from my mom, and brought them home, so I can start packing...If I dont I will surely for get something, and it will probably be something for Destiny..

Today my diet went pretty smooth, we ate and subway for lunch and dinner, it was very good.

However, Im going to have to find somewhere else to eat out at, here in town...

Taco Bell sounds to wonderful to think about!

O and Im finally under 205lbs, and can fit into last years jeans....YAY ME..

Well thats all for this post...I dont have much to discuss today!

NEW ITEMS ADDED TO MY SHOP

BACK TO SCHOOL CLOTHING ADDED TO SHOP

"Ruffles Skirt"

"Lil' Twirly Skirt"

"Military Style Hat"

"Lil' Pants Suit"

"Fall Dayz Dress"

FREE SHIPPING ON EVERYTHING IN SHOP!!

Im such an IDIOT!!!!

Well, to start I have to explain that it has been raining so much here in oklahoma that I feel like im in "Forks", its even flooded in some areas!

Well this afternoon, Destiny was begging to go outside, since we finally have some sunshine!!
So I thought I would back across my driveway so she could ride here tricycle and not get in the road, and like an IDIOT I wasnt thinking and just drove right out into my yard and my car got stuck!!!  I cant believe Im such and IDIOT!!

Well I cant tell you about this without Pictures so here you go:

I know what your thinking (well besides Im an IDIOT) its not that bad....Well, I decided to stop before I made it much much worse....I so have to wait for the hubby to get home and handle this!! lol

A WINNER

WINNER WINNER WINNER

DONNA

YOU ARE THE LUCKY WINNER

AND I WILL BE HEADING TO THE POST OFFICE TOMORROW SO YOU SHOULD HAVE IT IN ABOUT 1-3 DAYS...ENJOY

OK, I PUT YOUR NAME IN FOR EVERY CHANCE YOU USED TO WIN, LIKE LINKING,TWITTER,FOLLOWING, FACEBOOK...ETC.... AND WHAT ORDER YOU COMMENTED.

I USED THE LIST RANDOMIZER ON RANDOM.COM
AND HERE IS THE OUT COME:

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4.MISS EM
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GIVEAWAY

GIVEAWAY

OK HERE IT IS...

MY NEXT GIVEAWAY

A MONOGRAMED WIPES CASE

IN ZEBRA PRINT WITH BLACK RIBBON TRIMMINGS

YOU CAN CHOOSE THE COLOR OF THE TEXT

ORANGE

PINK

BLUE

WHITE

YELLOW

LIGHT PINK

ALL THESE COLORS LOOK GREAT.

NO MORE THAN 6 LETTERS PLEASE

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO TO WIN IS:

LEAVE A COMMENT TELLING THE NAME OF WHO YOU WANT IT FOR.

BE A FOLLOWER

BECOME A FACEBOOK FAN

FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER

FOR EXTRA CHANCES TO WIN:

HELP PROMOTE MY GIVEAWAY ON

TWITTER

FACEBOOK

ON YOUR BLOG!!

THE GIVEAWAY ENDS NEXT THRUSDAY

MARCH 25, 2010

IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS FEEL FREE TO EMAIL ME AT

ORANGEBLOSSOMBOUTIQUE2@GMAIL.COM

WINNER WINNER WINNER

The WINNER for the TUTU GIVEAWAY goes to: ANGIE from TREASURES FOR TOTS!!!

Congrats ANGIE!!

I just sent you an message on facebook, Be sure to contact  me with your mailing address...

THANKS EVERYONE FOR PARTICIPATING

SHOULD HAVE ANOTHER GIVEAWAY SOMETIME NEXT WEEK

SO KEEP YOUR EYES PEELED.